The Men behind my Insanity

I still can't get over what happened last night.. or should I say, a while ago.. It was 2 o'clock in the morning and I need to sleep because I have to work.. But I can't.. Maybe because I drank two cups of coffee, which is very unusual. I'm not much of a coffee drinker. I drink tea more than coffee.. so.. yea.. 

It was so quiet, everyone's sleeping.. then I opened my 2PM Collections box and saw the DVD I received from joining 'The Hottest Race'.. It was 'Legend of 2PM In Tokyo Dome' DVD. So without second thought, I watched.. (I wasn't able to finish it because I really need to sleep but I watched most of the clips)

I have already watched their concert once so I know the feeling of wanting to see them as soon as you sit in your chair, and maybe wanna stand all along so you could see them more..

At the beginning, there's always a video, like a teaser.. the video showed large sculptures of my boys in a place like Egypt.. and then.. slowly.. the video showed them one by one.. 

Taecyeon... //screams inside// Wooyoung... //screams inside//  Nichkhun.. //squeals// Jun. K... //squeals// Junho... //squeabbing (sobs and squeals)// and Chansung.. //dies for a sec// That was hell of a teaser.. I was like.. 

I was waiting for them to come out... and when they finally showed, I cried  like a baby.. I didn't care if someone will hear me.. I just need to let this out..  

Then..

It was Taec's voice over saying these words.. 

Running… My whole life…
I’ve been running…
It’s time to make a change

The LEGEND is now
The LEGEND is real
The LEGEND is me

and I'm like... 

Jun. K's voice is raping my ears.. The intro song "The Legend" with him singing that "ooooooOOOOoooooooh" (i'm done hahaha) is just so perfect... so so perfect.. he continues and..

Don’t over think it you all know
Just say the name cuz
I’m, LEGEND
I’m, LEGEND
I’m, LEGEND
Somebody tell me

As Jun. K continues in raping me... the camera focuses on each of their faces.. and I really had goosebumps.. I am seeing six beautiful guys in front of me (eff the screen though!!) singing.. while wearing these..

it's like they're telling me.. "I am the King.. and you.. are.. my Queen.. and we will make love.. and have our Prince and Princess.." OH MY GOD.. These guys.. 

I just felt a baby kicking.. immediately pregnant. and they're the fathers.. HAHAHA!

I can't clearly remember the order of the songs.. but.. I cried super hard during the 'I Can't' , 'Forever', 'I'll be Ok' , 'Hanarete Itemo' and 'Forever' performances..

During the 'Hanarete Itemo' performance.. I noticed a thing. I don't know if it's just me but..

Taec was singing his part, the first part.. and then I hear the audience singing with him.. The camera focused on his face and I saw him teary-eyed.. he breathed and suddenly pointed his microphone to the audience as they sing his part.. It was one magical moment.. I know Taec's such a cry baby. He easily cries during times like this.. Because he's so appreciative, all of the boys are.. Seeing him teary-eyed made me cry an ocean.. the Pacific ocean to be specific.. 

Since I became a Hottest, I am not normal anymore.. 

I cry even though they're performing upbeat songs like Hands Up, Don't Stop Can't Stop, I'll be Back, etc..

And after those songs, they sang 'Beautiful' with this chair dance.. 

and 'I'm Your Man' with the i'll-show-my-chest-come-and-get-me choreo.. with the thrust dance and stuff.. 

If you're asking what has happened to me?? Well I am completely fine but my.. 

The debris is all over my room.. I need to clean.. 

♥

See?? How is this even possible?? My life ruined by six beautiful men who tend to give me massive feels every second.. I cry, I laugh, I scream.. I became completely insane.. My sanity flew away just like that and it said it will never come back.. sanity left me.. 

When I'm on Twitter and see photos, even those so plain photos like an airport photo.. I am like.. 

Aside from my current job, I can do something very well.. That's FAN GIRLING.. Oyea //applauses to my self//

Let's get serious now..

Some people really do not understand why I like KPOP so much, 2PM in particular.. I also don't get why they need to criticize what I do, post and act.. This is me.. I love 2PM as much as they love fashion or collecting stuff.. I love 2PM as much as they love adventures and travel.. 2PM made me like this but I have no regrets.. One thing that I have everyday that they do not have is HAPPINESS, indescribable happiness.. My happiness is behind a computer screen but I feel complete.. I may be irritated and sometimes complain about what's happening in my existence but at the end of the day, Kim Minjun, Nichkhun Horvejkul, Ok Taecyeon, Jang Wooyoung, Lee Junho, and Hwang Chansung manage to make me smile and forget about the bad things that happened to me.. 

Yes, i admit, I am an exaggerated fan girl.. I imagine being in a relationship with my bias.. I act  as if I own them.. But even though I'm like this, at least I have a dream.. at least I have an imagination.. At least I have something to anticipate.. something to spend my time and effort on.. unlike other people who don't know what they want in life, I know what I want and need.. 2PM is my inspiration.. They're people who will forever be a part of me.. Nobody can take that away from me.. Screw other people's opinion, my bias loves me.. that's a fact!  He may not know someone like me exists, well at least I know they love their fans.. I am their fan so therefore, they love me.. = ]

And when I die, I want people to remember me as the one who lived her life happily because of following Korean Idols.. NO regrets, just pure happiness..